Thursday, January 27, 2011

but i'm les tired.

this could be the drugs talking..or not, i'm not quite sure actually but...i am tired. very simple and very true..i'm just tired with myself. when i say, "tired", i mean emotionally, physically, mentally, everything that encompasses "me"...i'm frustrated with myself for putting emphasis in areas that are not beneficial to me, but are detrimental. i'm tired of always doing what i say i'm not going to do or not doing what i always say i'm going to do. there is no consistency, no balance, no accountability in my life. i don't want to be "tired" anymore.

3 comments:

  1. I really hope this is the drugs talking... You don't sound too good! CALL ME!

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  2. don't worry, candace. it was part drugs talking but it is also that i've just been upset about some things. i will call you soon. i'm going home this weekend, so when i get back, for sure. i miss you and hope everything is doing well!!

    p.s. sorry this started to sound like a xanga post/suicide note..that's not what i was going for at all.

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  3. Personally, I think it's good to spill thoughts such as these (whether drug induced or not). 'Hope you find comfort in the reality that many, if not all of us, have been awakened to harsh realities such as the ones you are facing.

    Chin up, though. Big guy's watching over ya.

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